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Part 21 : I'm Ready For You

2010-09-25T10:08:00.008+03:00

Last Time on Memoirs of a Disturbed Teen ;

She turned on the ignition , and was surprised by the car's smooth purring . She put down the hand-break , switched the car into reverse and was off .

Little did she know that there was someone watching in a black Cadillac outside . The person inside looked insane . They had a deadly look in their eyes . They were looking for blood.

Nayla finally reached school after being stuck in traffic for 20 minutes , she parked her car and headed straight for the gym , where they were setting up the stage.

She felt like someone was following her but everytime she turned around , there was no one there. Until someone called her name . She saw a figure that looked like a woman in a hoodie and a pair of jeans . The hoodie's hat hid her face , but yet there was something so familiar about her , she just couldn't put her finger on it .

" I've got a message for you . " The woman said in a erie voice.

" Who are you and what do you want ? "

" Ouch ! I thought you would've already recognized me . " The woman then took the hat off to reveal her face .

Nayla's face turned into a hard cold expression

" What do you want ? I don't have the time to speak to white trash , I've got better things to do "

" Now there's no need to be rude darling , espically when I've got this " She held up a tape .

" It's a tape , so what ? Why don't you use what's inside it to go hang yourself "

The woman let out a scary and long laugh .

" My my , you do have a spine after all . But it's needs to be taken out , which is exactly what I'm going to do . You see kid , what I've got in my hand is a little preview of your little escapades with J in an elevator , if you know what I mean . Go on that stage tonight , and it's going to be on the Jumbo-tron for everybody to see . "

She walked away leaving Nayla dumb-founded and white - faced . She was trembling all over , her heart beating what felt like 1,000 beats per minute . A million thoughts were rushing through her head. What was she gonna go ? She couldn't not go on stage tonight , since there would be university scouts coming out , looking for suitable candidates for their prestigious scholarships. On the other hand , she couldn't risk J losing his job , or even getting arrested . What was she gonna do ?

She started walking to her car , but her legs would barely carry her . The first thing she did , was pick up her mobile and started dialing her phone and dialed the first person who come onto her mind .

" Where are you , I need you ... The bitch is back... "

Who do you think she called ? Were in for a roller-coaster of drama . Will J and Nayla make it out with no scratchs or is it game over for both of them ? Till next time on Memoirs of A Disturbed Teen ....

Part 20 : My Dance In The Dark..

2010-06-06T13:21:00.014+03:00

Last time on Memoirs of a Disturbed Teen…
At the bottom of the board was a video tape, She got it from the surveillance center of the building, this one was from the elevator monitor.

She got up and off the leather chair, put out the cigarette, before grabbing the tape and walking out the door.

“I’ll show him what I got “

Ouch! Somebody looks hurt...Well, there’s always a price to pay.
Oh how high is that price to pay...

Nayla was fidgeting, waiting for her name to be called next for her driver’s exam. She aced the written exam and all was left was the practical exam. This is where most people screw up . They either get a perfectionist as the examiner or crashes into something. She kept praying that she her examiner didn't fall into that category. Don't we all ?

After waiting for what seemed like eternity , the clerk called her name . she nervously started walking towards the door with the exit sign over it. She got pushed out by the revolving door.

She saw her examiner standing right by the car. He was your typical strict , no dilly dallying , hair that was way too greasy , pants that were way above waist , really geeky clipboard, and a pair of ancient worn out brown shoes.

" Your 2 minutes late Miss Nayla "

" Oh boy ! " She thought to herself.

" This is going to be a very long day "

2 hours later ....

She was cruising down the highway with her cousin Moh'd by her side. She had the biggest smile you would ever see on a human face , and he was laughing his ass off at the sight of her clown-like grin.

Yes ladies and gentleman , she passed her driver's test with flying colors and got her license on her first try . God knows people fail a couple of times before they even get to take the retarded picture everybody has of themselves on their cards.

She kept flashing her card to Moh'd every 5 minutes , and didn't stop the whole drive home. They put on one of her favorite songs on the radio.

" Ahhhhhhhh ! Moh'd , crank up the volume ! "

He chuckled , " Yes Ma'am ! "

They were playing Enrique Iglesias's new single " I like it " . She started singing along , while tapping on the steering wheel to the rhythm.

"Baby I like it
The way you move on the floor
Baby I like it
Come on and give me some more
Oh yes I like it
Screaming like never before
Baby I like it
I, I, I like it.
Party, Karamu, Fiesta, Forever"

Her mom Salma , was waiting for her at home . She did what your typical mom would do. She walked back and forth the entire living room , flipped through every magazine in sight, arranged and re-arranged the cushions on very coach , love-seat, rocking chair in sight . She finally settled down in a chair facing the door directly .

BOY ! is she a worry wort , but aren't all moms.. ?

Thankfully , 5 minutes Later , Nayla came rushing through the front door.

" MOM , I DID IT ! I GOT MY LICENCE ON THE FIRST TRY "

Her reaction is your typical joy oh joy , over the moon , ecstatic reaction all mothers have when their proud of their child or children on their achievements. Of course they sat down , and she described every little detail . Just as they were finishing everything up , Nayla peered down and peeked at her watch.

" Holy shit ! Excuse my French mom , but I'm late ! i have to go double check everything , and squeeze in one more practice session before tonight's show ! "

Her mother looked at her lovingly : " And how exactly are you gonna get there ? Ride a camel ? '

Nayla laughed out loud . She always loved her mom's sense of humor.

" I thought I'd just borrow your car " . She gave her mom that puppy - eyed look.

He mom tried to hide the huge grin that was about to form on her face.

" No "

Nayla looked confused " No ... ? "

" Your taking your car "

Nayla stood there dumb - founded.

" Mom , I don't have a car "

" You do now , look out the window "

She walked over to the window on her right , and peeked out the colored glass window . There she saw a candy red 78 King Cobra Mustang .

Her eyes looked like they were going to pop out of her head. She run to her mom and sat on her lap while showering her in hugs and kisses.

I mean come on ! if your parents got you a 'stang , wouldn't that be your reaction ?

She gave her mom one last kiss , and headed out the door. She ran up to the car and stopped right in front it . She slowly slid her hand across the smooth red hood , right till the car door. She slid into the seat , and patted on the steering wheel.

" It's just you and me Bella "

She turned on the ignition , and was surprised by the car's smooth purring . She put down the hand-break , switched the car into reverse and was off .

Little did she know that there was someone watching in a black Cadillac outside . The person inside looked insane . They had a deadly look in their eyes . They were looking for blood.

Oh boy ! Looks like were in for a blood -bath ladies and gentlemen . Till Next Time On ... Memoirs of A Disturbed Teen

Part 19 : I’ll Show Him What I Got ..

2010-06-05T22:34:00.002+03:00

Last Time on Memoirs of a Disturbed Teen…
“Nayla... I love you “
Her eyes teared up. It was the first time he ever said those 3 words to her.
“I love you too J “

He pulled her in and kissed her lightly on her lips and sank his face in her neck. Just to inhale her.

The big day had arrived. She felt it in her veins. She was up without a need for a wakeup call. Her internal alarm woke her up. She jumped out of bed, put on her robe and slippers, and put on Jamie Foxx’s new single “winner”. The words to the song blasted out her IPod speakers:

“I feel like I can’t miss I know they want me to fall
But ain’t nothing bigger than this , So just pass me the ball
You know you looking at a winner I can’t miss, Can’t lose, Can’t miss
You know you looking at winner
`Cause I’m a winner Yeah I’m a winner”

Yea, she felt like a winner that morning. She swept her curtains open in one quick move. The sun rays hitting her face gave her an adrenaline rush. She let out a little scream of happiness out and started busting moves to the songs, moving left to right, all the way to her bathroom door. Before she went in, she took out the mini calendar she had in her bedside table drawer. It was a gift from J with a different picture of them for every month of the year. She crossed off today. The day she finally turned 18.

She was relieved
She was Excited
She was ecstatic
She was going to get her driver’s license , graduate high school a week after that , and finally … walk around with J and no sneaking around anymore .

“Why did this day take so long to come ... But it’s here, it’s finally here “She said to herself, holding the calendar close to her chest and breathing in and out calmly. A few tears of bliss escaped her eyes, but quickly wiped them away.

“Nothing is going to ruin this day for me, I mean nothing…”

Pure innocent Nayla, little did she know that across town, there was somebody planning something big.

Across the city, there was a beautiful girl in a tight black dress, in a dark room, with a light reflecting on a huge white poster. The hotel room looked like it hadn't been cleaned for in weeks. The TV was on some cheesy Spanish soap opera. The air conditioning was on full blast. But she couldn’t feel a thing. She was that cold and heartless.

She lit her cigarette and looked at the board she had created. It was full of pictures of them together, with little bits of information here and there.

“Boy, Am I Evil, But hey that’s what you get for not being careful “

At the bottom of the board was a video tape, She got it from the surveillance center of the building, this one was from the elevator monitor.

She got up and off the leather chair, put out the cigarette, before grabbing the tape and walking out the door.

“ I’ll show him what I got “

Ouch! Somebody looks hurt...Well, there’s always a price to pay.
Oh how high is this price to pay...

Till Next Time…

Part 18 - 2 : Your Love Is My Drug

2010-05-29T11:58:00.002+03:00

Last Time on Memoirs of a Disturbed Teen…
She planted a light kiss on the rim of his neck. That drove him crazy.
She giggled a bit to herself, knowing that she just lit the fire.
During the quiet yet exhilarating ride back to his apartment, they both were in different worlds yet one thing was on their mind. They were both getting something tonight” if you know what I mean”;*

They finally reached J’s apartment, and he practically jumped out of the car to open the door for her. She looked surprised and yet amused.
“Damn, He must really need a break “She Thought to herself. She then got a very devilish idea. As soon as he closed the door, she put both her hands on his shoulders so that he was facing her. She pushed him against his car, slid her hands under his shirt, and leaned in and bit down on the bottom part of his ear.
He melted.
He was going insane.
He wanted her now...

He grabbed her from the waist and carried her to the elevator. There she wrapped her legs around his waist. They lip locked. She had her back against the wall. He had one hand behind her neck, the other holding her against him. Their lips touched, practically combined together. Whenever she bit on his lip, he pushed her against the wall harder. It was getting hot and heavy, so much , that the mirrors were fogging up.
Erotic isn’t it ; ) ?

He didn’t even bother to put her down; he unlocked the door while she was wrapped around him. He slammed the door shut with his leg, and she got down . He looked confused
“What’s wrong? “
“Nothing baby, it’s my turn to have some fun “
She pushed him against the couch, and straddled him, she kissed him again. She started unbuttoning his shirt
He had his hands up her shirt, his fingers slowing trailing up and down her back.
She starting kissing his neck, especially his weak points.
He has his hand on the small of her back and kept moaning her name. He left her breathless. He couldn’t handle it anymore.
He grabbed her and carried her to the bedroom and shut the door behind them.

And what happened, well, you can only imagine. But don’t worry; they didn’t do what our old folks call “the nasty”
They lay next to each other, breathless, both only in their underwear.
He pulled her in, and she held him. They stayed like that for what seemed like eternity. It seemed like they never wanted to let each other go…

“Nayla... I love you “
Her eyes teared up. It was the first time he ever said those 3 words to her.
“I love you too J “

He pulled her in and kissed her lightly on her lips and sank his face in her neck. Just to inhale her.

Now ladies, don’t we all wish our men were like that?

Till next time ; ) …

Part 18 : Your Love Is My Drug

2010-02-26T13:53:00.001+03:00

WARNING: There might be some very detailed sexual scenes and situations, for those who are shocked by such things or are too young to read this, are advised not to. Thank you.

An extra extra long and sinful post to make up for lost time, Enjoy ;*

A couple of days passed after the fateful incident. Things gradually got back to normal, although her father’s face stayed glued in her mind like glitter on paper. His reaction was beyond words. He still had that stone cold expression, yet a hint of sadness in his eyes. She shook it off every time since she had a performance coming up in a couple of days. She was also anticipating her birthday. She’d finally be 18 and could openly be in a relationship with J. Well, at least not have to keep it to between her, J, and Moh’d. The relief and the weight that would be lifted off her shoulders was inexpressible. She shifted that thought aside and was practicing the piece she had in front of her. She was doing her own acoustic version of Lady Gaga’s “Telephone”. Yea it was ganna be kick-ass. She was continuously practicing during her free periods, between lessons, at home, any time that she could use. She barely had time for J.
She was tired.
She was frustrated.
She needed a break.
She needed J.
She grabbed her phone and started dialing his number.

Meanwhile, J had just stepped out of the shower after a long and tiring day at the gym. He treasured any gym time he had since teaching took up most of his time. He was changing when he saw a picture of Nayla and him on his nightstand. It was at taken at a spring of love festival. They had an amazing time that day, and the memories were those of the spontaneous kind. Especially one of Nayla pulling him into passionate and lust filled kiss. He remembered how it gave him goose bumps and vast feelings of pleasure. It was the first time he had seen that side of her and thought to himself

“This girl is ganna drive me crazy”

With that thought in mind, his phone was ringing and her name was flashing across his screen.

Call Started

J: “You were just on my mind”

Nayla: “So were you... “

He noticed her tone of voice and knew instantly what it meant. He was about to have the adventure of a lifetime. Well , that’s how it is with her..

Nayla: “Hello, you there baby?”

J: “Yea sorry, just drifted off a bit...”

Nayla: “Well I was saying I think I should come over, I miss you...”

J: “I miss you more cutie, when do you want me to pick you up?”

Nayla: “Hmmm, Give me an hour...”

J: “alright baby, take your time. When you’re ready, just call “

Nayla: “alright baby, see you later “

J: “You too”

Call Ended.

That gave her enough time to glam up. She had to look good after all. She stepped into her bathroom and started taking a long yet quick lather session. She washed her hair and body with the cherry blossom and vanilla scented set that J was insane about. He’d always keep her close to breath in her scent. She lathered up twice, scrubbed thrice until she felt like the scent had been absorbed by her skin. She dried off and started air drying her hair, and ran her hair through it a couple of times until she got the right amount of volume and curls she wanted to achieve. Hair, check. She moved onto make up. She went through the basics and added a few more things to give her the extra oomph! She added her MAC studio fix, then a bit of bronzer along her cheek bones, loads of mascara, and Russian red lipstick. She looked divine. Make- up, check. Before moving on to wardrobe, she messaged her mom letting her know she was going out. Her mom was at work and instantly replied giving her the green light. She decided to go for her black lace underwear and bra set, along with her ruby red body hugging just above the knee dress, along with her black Mary janes , and black clutch purse. DAMN! J was sure in for a surprise. She added a few sprits of Bali dream here and there before taking one last look in the mirror before leaving. She gave herself a twirl before J messaged her.

J: I’m outside baby

Nayla: I’m coming ;*.

She headed down the stairs, and saw J waiting there. He was really a sight for sore eyes. His eyes were practically popping out of his eye sockets. He was hypnotized by how astonishing and sexy she looked now. He wanted her. He wanted her right there and then. The sight of him made her laugh a long and sensual laugh. He felt like his heart literally skipped a beat. She got into his into his fully tinted black on black 1970 ‘stang.

Nayla with an amused look on her face: What’s wrong baby?

He was lost for words. She was breath-talking

J: You...Look…Incredible...

Nayla: Thanks Honey.

She planted a light kiss on the rim of his neck. That drove him crazy.

She giggled a bit to herself, knowing that she just lit the fire.

During the quiet yet exhilarating ride back to his apartment, they both were in different worlds yet one thing was on their mind. They were both getting something tonight” if you know what I mean”;

To Be Continued…..

Part 17 : Please Tell Me What's Going On In Your Head ....

2009-12-13T19:24:00.007+03:00

Her heart was beating probably a thousand miles per hour. Well, it felt like it. As her heart was racing , her head was pounding harder and harder by the minute. Her hands were shaking worse than a sidewalk when a jackhammer hits it. Yea , that bad. The sweat was pouring by the bucket fulls down her back. She couldn't believe her eyes. The man she hadn't seen in years , who sent a frilly birthday card every once , was right in front of her at this very moment. Let's introduce you all to Nayla's father , Let's recap shall we ?

10 years ago....

Little Nayla was sitting as she always was. Right in front of the T.V. Watching Tom & Jerry Re-runs, with her curly hair in a two pigtails , and a huge bag of ready made cotton candy. She then heard somebody shouting , and heard things breaking. As being the curious child she's always been , she dropped whatever she had , and started walking towards her parent's room.

Mahir: Are You Serious ?! Do you think I'm an idiot and have no idea of what's going on ?! Your a whore and a liar !

Salma was lying on the floor , with a huge gash along her forehead , with blood trickling down the side of her face. She was defenseless . Nayla watched while her mother was being tortured repeatedly by the man she called dad. Her father had major anger management issues , and had an even bigger jealousy problem. Salma's beauty resembled a Greek goddess. She was stunning, and much like Nayla but older. She also had piercing sapphire blue eyes , while her father had a mix of jade green and honey-sickle hazel eyes. Therefore , Salma would always get much un-wanted attention from men . That enraged Mahir even more. He'd always accuse of her of cheating and that she threw herself onto any men that came her way.

Nayla couldn't handle watching her mom being battered . She burst into the room and stood in between her father and mother. He didn't even flinch . He grabbed Nayla by her hair and threw her against their bedside lamp. Her mother had dialed her brother's number and left the phone open and on a side, which saved them from the grips of death. Her brother and Nayla's uncle Jaad , burst into their household with the rest of their male family members , and took took out Mahir in one punch . Since that awful day , Nayla had never faced her father again. She has a small scar below her eye which reminded her daily on what kind of monster her father was. That monster was right in front of her , and the scar burning like a bomb fire gone bad.

Nayla: What are you doing here ?...

Mahir : I should be asking you that question , and what the hell are you doing in this guy's apartment alone?

Nayla: You have no right to ask me anything or tell me what to do.

Mahir : Yes I do , I'm your father.

Nayla: No , Your a monster. My father's dead.

Ouch , I know..

Mahir began clinching his fists as he always did before he was about to hit anyone. Nayla noticed that and stood behind J immediately. He sensed her fear and dis-comfort.

J: Look , we don't want any problems , so if you will , step aside.

Mahir: I will , and I'm taking this white-trash whore with me.

J at the moment , swiftly grabbed Mahir by the neck and pinned him against the wall .

J: If you ever come near her, try to talk to her , even make eye contact with her, I'll make sure that your buried 6 feet under where no one would ever think of finding you , got it asshole?

Mahir cowardly nodded . J let him drop to the ground and he scurried away. Nayla was amazed . She never thought that anybody could plant that kind of fear in anybody , specifically her father, who seemed to be the human re-incarnation of the devil himself. She embraced J tightly as he turned around and faced her.

J: He never is going to bother you again , not while I'm alive.

Nayla: I know...

J " Cupping her face in between his hands": No , I want you to believe it. Baby , I love you, and you have my heart. Whenever your in pain , angry , happy , or sad , I feel it deep down inside. Don't you ever forget that alright ?

He kissed her on the crown of her head , and pulled her close . She breathed in his scent and said a silent prayer

Nayla : " God , Thank you for sending me this angel..."

Part 16 : As The Saying Goes: " The Heart Wants What It Wants"

2009-10-12T20:39:00.006+03:00

Moh'd starting dialing Nayla's number....

The dial tone began....

As they were mesmerised by each other , Nayla saw her phone vibrate and Moh'd's name flashing on the screen.

Nayla: Hold on babe, Moh'd calling..

She turned around , picked up her phone, and pressed the answer button...

Nayla: Hey Moh'd , What's up ?

Moh'd: Alot actually..

Nayla " with a worried look on her face" : What's going on ? Are you OK ?

Moh'd: Yeaa , Don't worry, I actually have some good news for you..

Nayla " her face suddenly showing a curious look" : Oh ?

Moh'd: The bitch.. I mean "Marwa" won't be bothering you anytime soon ...

Nayla: Moh'd , what did you do ?

Nayla knew Moh'd had a quick temper, and was afraid he might have done something he'd eventually regret...

Moh'd: Don't worry couz, It's all been settled and dealt with..

Nayla: Alright, but I'm trusting you and please make sure you don't do anything extreme or stupid...

Moh'd: Don't worry , it's all cool and I didn't do anything out of line, I only did what was necessary..

Nayla: Alright couz, Thanks alot , See ya soon . Take care and I love you.

Moh'd: You Too couz. bye

Nayla: bbye..

The phone call ends.

The wrinkle lines on Nayla's forehead always showed when she was either really ticked off or really worried. Seeing that , J got his cue , and wrapped his arms around Nayla's tiny delicate waist and instantly , Nayla begin to relax. He whispered into her ear ..

J : You don't have to worry about him , he's a great guy , who actually has a brain. He knows what he's doing..

Nayla: Do you always have to eavesdrop on my phone calls?...

J " with a puppy look in his eyes" : Only when I see you scrunching up your forehead.

Nayla" while scrunching her forehead": I don't..

J: You just did it again.

They both started laughing , and began to forget the eventful day that they had.They just stood in silence , enjoying each other's embrace..

Nayla: Sweety , it's getting kinda late . We both have a long day ahead of us tomorrow.

J: Alright babe , grab your stuff and I'll drop you off.

They started cleaning up , putting the dishes away , Nayla grabbed her coat , and they started heading fo the door hand in hand. Nayla put her hand on the doorknob and slowly starting turning it while facing J with the hugest smile she had on her face . She started opening the smooth dark amber wood door .When she started heading out the door, she never expected to find the last person on earth standing right at J's doorstep..

Nayla: Dad ?!

To be continued....

Part 15 : Sweet Satisfaction

2009-08-25T15:26:00.004+03:00

After the whole show down with Marwa , Moh'd had some what achieved self-peace. He knew something like that would stop Marwa from pulling another circus stunt like that. He took out it cell-phone and started dialing Nayla's number..

Meanwhile, J and Nayla just finished a delicious dinner J whipped up for them. After a long , and draining day, it's something they both needed. Wouldn't you?

They then put on some soft acoustic music to relax to. They sat there for awhile in each other's embrace. They were each other's sole comfort, and could only open their hearts to each other. J gently tipped his face as he stared to into Nayla's divine grey eyes with such intensity. She stared back into his deep blue eyes, that seem to go on forever. She never wanted them to stop. He cupped her face within his hands, as she tipped her face in closer. They were only a breath's width away. He gently lay his lips on hers. The sweet taste and scent of him drove her insane.She gently kissed him back. As they sat like that for awhile, the intensity cranked up a notch. It got more passionate.Their embrace tightened as he had his arms around her waist and pulled her closer, she had her left hand snaked behind his head, and on a lock of his amazing jet black hair. Her right hand behind his neck, just pulling him in closer and closer. The hunger and lust they had for each other was just as powerful as their love and passion. They slowly started parting from each other , but only to look at each other. Their foreheads touching and as he twirled a lock of her hair that managed to escape from behind her ear around his finger. He always loved playing with her curls and they were amazingly soft.As he did that, he sent the same chills that she felt when she held him the first time they met. He pulled her close and she gently lay her head against his chest , while she heard and felt his heartbeat under her finger tips.

He suddenly got up . Nayla was startled. What is going on ? She thought to herself. He turned around ...

J: May I have this dance?

Nayla: "letting out a small laugh" No..

J: No...?

Nayla: You'll always have this dance...

J: You drive me crazy you know that?

Nayla: As do you....

They looked at each other lovingly as he took her hand and twirled her around. She let out a shriek of joy as he pulled her close. They were more in love then ever and it showed. As they danced the day away to the rhythms of the sweet melody they call love.....

Part 14 : Whipped !

2009-08-16T19:11:00.003+03:00

Marwa felt scared. Sweat started forming at the brow of her eye , her hands started shaking as the person she was facing was looking her died in the eye.

Moh'd : Hey home-wrecker ? Up to no good again I see...

Marwa: Hey 7amood..How..

Moh'd: Don't you ever call me that , You make my name sound disguisting..

Marwa : Sorry ..

Moh'd: Not as sorry as your going to be now..

Marwa's eyes looked like they were going to pop of her head..

Marwa: What do you mean ? I didn't do anything to you this time..

Moh'd: That's true , but you just recently messed with the wrong girl...

It hit her . Who he was talking about was none other then Nayla..

Marwa : What does that kid have anything to do with you ?....

Moh'd: First of all , she's more mature then you'll ever be and second , that person is my close and loving cousin.

OH SHIT ! Was all Marwa could say in her mind , and knowing Moh'd well enough.. She thought .. Let's Recap shall we ?

1 year ago , Marwa had met Moh'd, rather seen him , at a friend's party . She kept checking him out the whole time with a mischievous look in her eye . She being the bitchy person that she it , went up to him and tried to start up a conversation. Moh'd knowing her reputation from friends, ignored he every attempt , until started walking away until she tugged him and laid one on him just to get his attention. He immediately pulled back and spat at the ground. Unfortunately, Ashwag was standing right there watching it all happen. She came up to Moh'd slapped him in front of all his friends and told him it was over. She ran towards the door , and left him there looking dumb-founded. He never knew what hit him , it was all happening too fast . Then , his blankness was filled with fury as he looked towards Marwa , with her hands on her lips , and a huge grin on her face. Moh'd was the kind of guy who rarely got angry , but when he did in those rare times, all hell rages over. He grabbed Marwa by the sides of her arms and pushed her against the wall. She had never been more scared in her life. He started shouting at her and cussing, saying the she just ruined the most amazing relationship he's ever had , and that an amazing girl walked away from him because of her disgusting stunt. As that was happening , Ashwag had forgotten her car keys and went back to get them . When she did she saw the whole scene and jumped in to pray Moh'd off of Marwa. When she did , she calmed him down , saying she believed it wasn't his fault and that Marwa was to blame. They kissed and made up , with everybody cheering them on. Then she turned to Marwa, slapped her right across the face , smiled , while he and Moh'd left the party hand in hand.

Remembering all that still gave her chills and sometimes made her space out at times., but this moment wasn't one of them.

He grabbed her by the arm and threw her against the wall. She let out a small scream but still kept quiet. Tears were streaming down her face at that point.

Moh'd: Don't try those crocodile tears on me , they won't work. But let me remind you what I warned you a year ago. If you ever mess with me , or my girl , or anybody I know for that fact, I'll treat you like the animal your trying to be.

Ouch ! That was a huge verbal slap against her face.

She then attempted to find out how he found her.

Moh'd: Remember , I have connections ...

That sent another frightening chill down her back. He eyes couldn't have gotten any wider.

Moh'd: Let be this the last time I ever speak to you again. Cause their won't be a next time, if you know what I mean.

He said that while walking towards the door . He let himself out , and left Marwa there . She had never been more terrified in her life . She wrapped her arms around herself and started silently sobbing.

What goes around come around, so be careful with what you say or do ; ) ...

Beginning a new blog

2009-07-09T01:53:00.002+03:00

Hey everybody !

As you all know , I've been working on memoirs of a disturbed teen for a while , and I've been loving the amazing and positive feedback I've been getting. So much , to the point where I've started a second blog called " The Bond". If you want to start reading it , just go to my profile and you'll see it there . It's also a fictional story line , and I hope you all enjoy it!

Yours Truly,

A Bahraini Dream.

Part 13 : What Goes Around Comes Around..

2009-07-09T00:55:00.004+03:00

It all starts with the saying, what goes around comes around. You screw some one over , Karma comes right back and bites you in the ass. This obvisouly didn't apply to the most hated person at this moment. While Marwa was basking in joy over her lastest conquest , she hadn't realized that all she had done , backfired. She was bragging about it with her equally coniving friend , Layal.

Marwa: Hahaha ! I know , I know , I'am a genuis right ?!

Layal: More then a genuies ! I salute you ! How the hell did you come up with the idea anyways ?!

Marwa: It didn't need much thought anyways. I mean , why let all my hard work go down the drain ? I traveled half way around the world to study something I could actually use. Heck , even a monkey could pull it off.But before you know it , J will be back in my arms , and that kid can forget all about him.

Layal: You really think so ? I mean , J's pretty honest and all , so she might figure out that something fishy's going on.

Marwa: Naaaah , I don't think so .

Suddenly , her hotel room phone started ringing .

Marwa: Hold on , my hotel room's ringing..

Marwa picked up the reciever to find it was the consierge ..

Consierge : Madam , This is the consierge calling , there's a man inquiring on where you room is , should I give him that information and let him up ?

Marwa's face light up and a huge grin came along: Yes yes , it's alright , I was expecting somebody anyways, thank you for informing me.

Consierge : Your welcome madam , and enjoy your stay.

Click. The phone call ended. She put the reciever back on the phone and got back to Layal.

Marwa: See ? I told it would work.

Layal : Ha ? What's going on ?

Marwa: He came inquiring about my room number and wants to come up. See ? He's already back in my arms.

Layal : Damn ! I guess I lost the bet after all , I owe you a pair of Gucci Heels.

Marwa "laughing": Damn right you do , and you know my shoe size and what style I picked out ;).

Layal "groaning"": Yea yea yea..

Somebody knocked on her door.

Marwa: He's here. I'll talk to you later with all the juicy details .

Layal: You better ! See ya.

Marwa: Hahaha , Alright , Bye.

Click. Phone call ends.

She walks over to the door and before that observes herself in the mirror, whispering "Dead Sexy" and falshed herself a seductive smile. She put her hand on the door handle , opened the door . A whole new feeling splashed over her....

Part 12 : Your The Reason I Keep Smiling..

2009-06-30T18:12:00.006+03:00

When they finally got to J's condo after a 20 minute drive, Nayla was the first one out. She practically sprinted to see if J's car was in the building's parking space. Since it wasn't, she took out his condo keys. She asked Moh'd is he could come up with her to make sure everything was safe and sound. He parked his car , and when he got out, they both walked towards the lift that would take them start up to J's condo. Moh'd out of nowhere remembered something.

Moh'd: This condo looks so familiar to me, its like I've been here before..

Nalya: Really?

Moh'd : Yea I know I've been here , But I just need to remember when and with who..

A few moments of silence hang over...

Moh'd: Now I remember !! I knew J sounded so familiar to me, we used to hang out together with a group of friends at Hong Kong, since they used to have lunch together once a week. He was laid-back and really friendly. But when he headed of to the U.S. , we felt like somebody was missing. He always used to make us laugh and even the restaurant staff liked him . He even got us a couple of free lunches.

Nayla"grinning with a huge smile": That sounds like the J I know..

Then the lift stopped at J's floor. Nayla inserted the key into the brass key hole that opened up the lift doors directly into J's condo. He lived in one of the most spacious buildings in his area and Nayla loved how his condo gave off a Bohemian feel that would send you off imagining yourself relaxing on the beaches of Maldives. Captivating right ?

When she got in , she saw that it needed a bit of cleaning up. Since she knew where he kept the cleaning clothes and dettol, she started scrubbing any surface that had anything spilt on it. She stacked all his papers, and before she knew it , the place was spotless. She then called J , and asked where he was, he said he had just parked his car in his condo building. She told him she was waiting upstairs and that there's something she had to show him.

J suddenly felt nervous. Not the good kind that you get when your around the person you love , no the bad kind, the kind you get when you know something bad was about to happen. You know what I mean. He took a deep breath , stepped out of his car , and slowly started heading towards the elevator doors , counting his paces as he went along. It was one of his many habits , one that usually showed up when he was nervous. When he finally got to his condo, his nervous face turned into a huge boy like grin. He saw Moh'd there standing next to Nayla , who without any hesitation , came over and hugged J in a tight embrace and gave him a light peck on the cheek. He then was sure that nothing was about to happen. He then headed over to Moh'd , and Gave him a good old bear hug. he had remembered him from time to time and missed the times they used to hang out. They started catching up until Nayla interrupted them.

Nayla: Sorry to cut your catching up short ,but J , there's something you need to see.

J: What is it ?

She then pointed to the brown package on his mahogany table , and at the T.V.

Nayla " with a remote control in her hand": This .

She clicked the play button , and as we watched the video , it was apparent that anger began flaring up within him. His started clinching his fists , and a tightness started developing around the edges of his lips. When the video finally was over , he took out the DVD and broke it against the wall with his very own hands. Nayla jumped when she heard the DVD crash . She had never seen J so angry in her life. He then sat down on the couch with his hands to his face. She walked over only to discover that tears were slowly trickling down his cheeks. That made her heart ache in such way, something she hadn't felt in a long time. She put her arms around him , and slowly stroked his hair. It was something that always calmed him down.

Nayla: Baby , I know it isn't true , remember , you told me about her and how she was a visual arts major.

J: I know, but she's never gonna give up until she gets what she wants. She's trying to break us apart...

Nayla: That never is gonna happen , cause I love you , and trust you more then I trust myself. No matter what she does , she's never gonna tear us apart. The only thing that will is death .

She gave him her famous reassuring smile , and he felt his heart skip a beat. He never really understood how Nayla thought and reacted to everything . But she now proved how mature she really was, and thought about everything with reason.

Nayla: So no more tears , K ? They don't suit you anyways . Water works is my department.

Moh'd: Trust me , I know , you should've seen the lungs on this kid when she was a baby . Damn ! was she annoying , I dunno how I bared her.

Nayla gave him a dangerous-in-a-teasing-way look. " Remember your driving me home ; ) "

He acted like he was scared, begging for mercy . They all ended up laughing

Moh'd: And J , you don't have to worry about you know who , she has what's coming to her.."

He then felt so much love in that one single moment. He knew that they had his back and would be there for him no matter what. Nayla was at the moment the reason he kept smiling...

Part 11 : Baby , Just Sway Me Now....

2009-06-21T22:44:00.003+03:00

It hit her harder then a baseball batter hitting a home run . She remembered J mentioning that Marwa was a visual arts major when she was studying with J. With that in mind, she felt a flush of relief flow over her so hard that it knocked her over. She slowly got up, wiping away the tears of relief that escaped, and quickly took out a black tank top , with a emerald green cotton sweater , with a pair of her favorite navy blue skinny jeans. She laid them out on the bed and headed to the bathroom for a quick shower before Moh'd would pick her up. She quickly took out the DVD , put it in it's original packaging and put it aside. She also put aside her set of keys of J's condo that he had made epically for her, just in case he wasn't home. She then stepped into her chocolate coloured bathroom. She always loved everything to be neat and in place. She turned the tap on and let the warmness of the hot water relax her muscles. She stood like that for awhile before reaching for her soft white sponge and squeezing onto it some of her favorite St.Ives Vanilla body liquid wash. She always loved the smell of vanilla and the calming effect it had on her. After washing it off, she got out and put on her fuzzy rabbit slippers with her equally comforting over sized bath robe. She quickly dried herself off , applied her body lotions and what nots , and quickly got dressed. She was combing her hair when Mohd called.

Nayla: Hey hey "saying it in an up beat tone"

Mohd: I am waiting outside.... Somebody sounds like their in a good mood

Nayla : I am , and I'll tell you all about it , just give me 5 and I'll be right down.

Mohd: k , see you in a bit.

Nayla: Bye.

Click. Phone call ends.

She then quickly applied some of her NC42 mac foundation, that always leaned towards he natural looking appeal, which she always favored. With a bit of Labelo , she was done and heading out down the stairs, went to say goodbye to her mom and headed out the door. She then quickly recognized her cousin's flaming red mustang. That thought of that always made her laugh, knowing her cousin oh too well , being a car junkie herself. She went ahead, and opened the passenger's seat door...

Nayla: Haaaaa Hamoodiii ! How've u been couz ?

Moh'd: I am great , and how r u kiddo?

Nayla: I am only a year younger then you, you do remember that , right ?

Moh'd " with a evil grin" : But it's fun tormenting you ! You've always been my favorite person to tease.

Nayla: What goes around comes around. First chance I get , you'll be sorry ......

They both ended up laughing a lot. It felt to good to see her cousin after so long, he always knew how to cheer her up. He was easy on the eyes too. Both their mothers would always tease them about how good they looked together, and that one day they would end up together. They always would laugh in their mother's faces, thinking if their mothers only knew the truth and leaving both of them to think that their children had gone mad....Moh'd was deeply and madly in love with a friend of Nayla's , Ashwag , Who've known each other since pre-school. When ever those two had a problem or a fight, Nayla would come to the rescue and patch things up. They've been together for almost 6 years now , and were more in love then ever now. He always a had a picture of them together on his key chain and so did she. He was fit and had muscles in all the right places , with tanned skin and grey eyes, just like Nayla. People would sometimes mistake them to be siblings, but then were later corrected. As they were heading on to the highway , they started catching up and laughing about some of their early childhood memories, while Nayla explained what had happened earlier. Moh'd knew that J would never do that and swore once he found who this Marwa was, she'd kiss her sorry ass goodbye. She laughed at the thought of Moh'd doing that, but in her heart some relief washed over, knowing Moh'd always did what he swears he would do. As the sun set, Nayla always loved the sight of it and each one reminded her of J and their very first date. A bunch of memories rushed into her , and she smiled thinking of each one of them. She was like that the whole way to J's condo......

2009-06-03T23:36:00.001+03:00

Hey Everybody ! Hope your all doing well.

Unfortunately, Due to the fact that my finals have already started , I am gonna be on a "leave of absence" . I hopefully will be back before you know, and please wish me good luck = D ! Ly all x x.

Part 10 continued....

2009-06-02T18:40:00.005+03:00

Hey Everybody ! Pheww ! I'am finally done with my finals and the summer is here ! There will be more posts coming your way during this vacation,and here's part 10 continued . Waiting for your feedback ! Ly xoxo

A video started playing with a woman introducing herself..

" Hey Nayla , You probably know who I am , And if not , let me enlighten you. I am Marwa."

Nayla felt a hot flush surge within her. Anger replaced her usual calm exterior.She usually wasn't the type of person who's anger levels would rise so easily, but something just ticked her off this time.

"J must have already told u about me , and being the honest guy he usually is , he probably told you about what happened earlier....He probably told you of how I was the one who approached him and blah blah blah.. well , that was his version, this might show you something else...Hope you enjoy, I know I did ; ) " She blew a kiss to the camera and the clip started.

Nayla's eyes started tearing up for the first time in what seemed like years and she felt like a butcher knife went through her heart.

J seemed to have kissed Marwa and proclaimed that Marwa was the one for him.

Oh the pain she felt. Her world had crashed and burned in the matter of 1:20 seconds. She fell to the ground with her arms wrapped around herself, and let the tears trickle down. She cried and cried, and did that till she couldn't breath , her head pounding , her heart beating at what felt like 120 beats per second, and her eyes swollen as if a bee had stung them. Her mascara and eyeliner smeared underneath her usual welcoming looked eyes. She got up , went to the bathroom and splashed some cold water against her face.

As she looked into the mirror ,and thought to herself " What am I doing to myself ? why put up with all this pain and humiliation, There's one thing J taught me is to never back down when some one's done you wrong. I'am not going to be the victim."

She grabbed her Blackberry , and starting dialing a number...

Mohd: Hello..

Nayla: Hey , It's Nayla..

Mohd: Oh hey hey ! How've you been kiddo ? Long time no speak !

Nayla: Yeah sorry couz , I've been busy with school and all.

Mohd: Oh Yea , your graduating this year right ?

Nayla: Yea finally ! No more uniforms , no more getting up at 6 a.m. , College life here I come !

There was an awkward silence between them

Mohd: Ok Nayla , drop the act , What's going on ? Are you okay?

Nayla felt like the tears were choking up, but calmed herself before responding..

Nayla: Remember the guy I was telling you about ? J ?

Mohd: Oh yea ! How is he ?

Nayla : He's gonna be dead.

Mohd:....Ha ?

Nayla: I need a ride , can you give me one ?

Moh'd: On one condition , you tell me what's going on..

Nayla: I will on the way, how long do you need before you get here ?

Moh'd: About 1/2 hour.

Nayla: Alright I'll be waiting...And Thanks 7amood ..

Moh'd : Anytime Nayool

Nayla: Bye

And the call ended. She put her blackberry down and went straight to her closet, She took out a medium sized black box that had a lock on it. The key was around a chain on her neck, and opened up the box.

Inside were all gifts,pictures,and whatever J had given her. She looked at it and felt a huge pang of guilt. Then she thought to herself "Something isn't adding up, J saw Marwa at school earlier that day, and practically chastised her " Then it hit her.. She just had a revelation...

Part 10 : And Here Come The Water Works.....

2009-05-29T20:10:00.005+03:00

Nayla lay her head on her pillow with pure bliss shining in her eyes. She knew J was the one she'd spend the rest of his life with, espically after he told her about Marwa and the stunt she tried to pull off earlier, She knew he was faithful and all hers. She eventually dozed off and went into a deep peaceful slumber.

She got up the next day and had the her regular routine, breakfeast school, lunch with J , and then home. When she walked into her room , putting her back pack aside, not paying attention to the box that lay on her bed. She walked towards it , and picked it up. She kept thinking to herself what's in the box ? She noticed that there was small letter tapped to it. She tore it off , and read what was on the inside.

" This is something you really need to see. It will open up your eyes.."

Then, curiosty sank in. Nayla, having the curiosty of a cat, opened up the box to find a CD. She popped it into her Sony laptop, and a video started playing. What she saw changed her whole world upside down ...

To be Continued...

Part 9 : Give It Up Suga , The Gig Is Up...

2009-05-26T14:17:00.001+03:00

After a long and exhausting day at work, J finally turned the keys to open his condo's front door. He dropped his keys on the kitchen counter top, headed over to the fridge, and took out a nice cold can of red bull. He looked at it with a smile on his face. Nayla knew it was his favorite, but this wasn't just an ordinary can of red bull, she got it flavored with peach syrup, which seemed to be his favorite. He popped it open and starting sipping it. He felt the rush of pure bliss go down his parched throat. He let out a sigh of relief. As he did, he took off his black polo shirt, and as he did he revealed his hard core pecks, with amazing biceps and triceps. That image right there would make any woman fall to her knees. He hadn't noticed that somebody else was in the apartment.

Stranger: Woaah! Now that's a sight for sore eyes …

When he turned to face his intruder, ready to defend himself; his face turned sour.

J: You again? And how the hell did u get in here?

Answering him: I told you that I still love you

J: It's more like you wanna stalk me...

Stranger: Aww, your being mean, that's no way to treat a guest…

J: Trust me, your no guest; now get out before I make you...

Stranger: Ohh, That sounds good to me

J: Marwa, Get the fuck out and I mean it!

Marwa: Oh come on J, stop playing hard to get. You know you still want me …

J: You make my skin crawl, and that's not a good thing.

She got up off his couch, and slowly started walking towards him. She had a super tight cocktail dress on, with her auburn hair in sexy curls, and a crimson red lipstick that was a great contrast with her cream white skin. She looked divine, but to J, it was something he had already seen before, and was of no interest to him.

Marwa: Come on, I still know there's some chemistry left between us, you can't deny it.

She said that as she put her finger on his lips, forcing to him to stop speaking. He smacked her finger off.

J: Don't you ever touch me again!

And without any clue of what was about to happen next, She forced a kiss on him. Their lips met and whenever he tried to pull away, she'd pull in harder. He finally got her off and pushed her away.

J: She is everything your not, and is the person I chose to be with. Stop trying to be that person and get the hell out ….

She grabbed her handbag, stuffed some stuff in it and left. He sat down in utter shock, thinking to himself "She's stooped so low, to try and force herself on me. She is a completely different person now. Thank you god, for opening my eyes …"

He immediately took out his cell phone and start dialing...

Nayla: Heyy baby! I've missed your voice...

J: 7ayatii! I've missed yours even more, you no idea….

As they were talking and catching up on each other's days, Marwa took out her video camera, started playing a video, and edited a few things here and there. With a smile on her face, J was in for one hell of a joy ride…..

Part 8 : Simply Jump Over The Bubbles...

2009-05-21T20:03:00.003+03:00

Hey Everybody! I'm back and better then ever. Sorry I took so long to post the 8th part, but I had some loose end to tie up and some deep soul searching. I'd like to thank everybody for being so patient and hopefully you'll keep enjoying what I deliver x x.

With the concert and planning Nayla's birthday surprise, He had his hands full. He stayed after school with his students, making sure that everybody got their parts right, helping them where they had some trouble hitting the right notes , and making sure they took good care of their instruments. While they weren't around, he'd be making phone calls to flower shops, calling numerous jewelers, and etc… He wanted everything to be perfect and so much more. She deserved it. After a while, He put his iPod headphones into his ears and started searching some things online. He heard somebody walk in but probably thought it was one of the cleaners, coming to clean up after the students. He continued to work, till he felt somebody tap him on shoulder. He turned around and when he did, his face turned ghost white..

J: Marwa?! What are u doing here?!....

Marwa: I'm here to see my baby? Don't I have the right to?

J: I'm not your baby anymore, you made that clear last time you saw me, remember?

Marwa: You know I was just mad sweetie; we were having a huge fight over nothing.

J: if it was really over nothing, you would have tried to make up the very next day, not 2 years later ….

She stood there speechless, not knowing what to say. You see, Marwa was J's First Love. They met while they were both studying in New York, and had right away fallen in love. Well at least J did. They were Both 18 and stayed together for over a year. They did everything together until one day; they were going over study notes till one of her guy friends bumped into them. Let's rewind time to 3 years ago to a cold winter's day….

Khalid: Marwa...

Marwa turned he head to face him.

Marwa: Khalid, what are u doing in New York?

Khalid: I study here, How've u been?

Marwa: I've been great…

J coughed, making sure she didn't forget he was there..

Marwa: Oh sorry where are my manners? J this is Khalid, Khalid this is J.
They both exchanged their hellos and chit chatted a bit.

Khalid: Anyways I've got to go , it was nice meeting you J and see you around Memo…

Marwa "feeling nervous": Yeah, you too…

After he left there was an awkward silence between J and Marwa for a while until J finally spoke up...

J: what did he mean by "see you around Memo ..."?!

Marwa: Baby it's nothing, Khalid's an old friend of mine and its pet name.

J: I didn't think I was going to have to bring this up, but I know who he really is Marwa...

Sweat starting forming at her brow, while she started playing with her hand nervously…

Marwa: What do you mean?

J : Jason told me he saw you with that guy on campus last week and that you two were getting a little too friendly..

Marwa: Oh come on! You believe that bastered? He's high half the time and never pays attention to anything…

J: Stop right there. First things first, you have no right to call him that. Second, he was dead serious, and I know when he's bullshitting and when he isn't.

Marwa: Come on baby, you know I'd never do that to you.

J: You admitted to me that you used to be a player, how can I believe you aren't okaying me right now?

Marwa: I wouldn’t do that to you….

J: Marwa, we've been together for over a year now, I know when your lying and when your not… You're lying now.

Marwa: How would you know if I was lying? You never even pay attention to me.

J: I pay more attention to you then I do to myself!

Marwa: Don't shout at me, I'm not a little kid.

J: I wish you were, at least a kid would tell me the truth!!

Marwa: That's it, you've crossed the boundaries.. IT'S OVERR!

She picked up her stuff and walked out, leaving him to stare dumbfound while she walked away. He never heard from her again. He'd hear about how she and Khalid hooked up and that she was on top of the world, while J hit rock bottom. He couldn't sleep or eat, He was miserable. He eventually finished college in 3 years , thanks to the fact that he took I.B. in high school, he graduated and headed back to his home country , Bahrain. Now back to where our story was…

Marwa: Sweetie, the past is past and I was a kid then, I didn't get anything, and I was confused… I still love you...

J: ENOUGH!

Marwa was startled; he'd never seen him burst like that ever…

J: IN WHAT PARLLEL WORLD DO YOU LIVE IN WHERE YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST WALK RIGHT BACK INTO MY LIFE AFTER WHAT YOU DID? YOU DESTROYED ME! YOU WENT OFF WITH THAT SON OF ……you know what? It's not even worth it anymore. I'm done saying what I have to say, now get out of my face, and I never want to see you again...

Marwa: You must really love her ha?

J: Yes I do , and I know she loves me back. I'm about to give her everything I was willing to give you and so much world.

Marwa: Can I know what her name is?

J: It's Nayla, and she's my angel.

Marwa: Alright then, See you around J and Take good care of her.

She then walked towards the door, not looking back not once, just as she did last time. Except this time J was the one who took control. He had never been more relieved in his life. It was something he had kept bottled up for what seemed like eternity. He then got back to his laptop and continued going through the web pages. He kept telling himself "just jump over the bubbles..."

2009-04-08T22:38:00.002+03:00

I'm sorry everybody that i haven't been posting anything recently, I know I've been cutting back, bas due to the fact ina 3ami tawafa "Allah Yer7ama" I'm going through a rough time, so please bear with me through this hard time, and I will hopefully start posting again and completing "memoirs of a disturbed teen" . Thanx everybody and Love you all x x.

A Poem : It Is Her

2009-03-31T20:23:00.004+03:00

I'd like to dedicate this post with a poem I wrote for my grandmother , who passed away on the 28th of January 2008 . I miss you both . Allah yer7mich oo Ya'3mid rou7ich il janna ya yuma ...I love you.

Time flies by in the blink of an eye
Words go un-said and sounds go un-heard
As autumn leafs gently flutter to the ground
The winter silence screams the truth
The old widower visits his beloved's grave
With regret and sorrow across his withered face
He lay apple blossoms on the engraved tombstone
Engraved it said " Here lay the savior of all, her presence is sensed within the hearts of all .."
She finally lay to rest, after her on-going battle with life
He walks away, the bitter-sweet tears trickle down his cheeks
The thud of his footsteps fill the silence...

Part 7 : What A Girl Wants.....

2009-03-26T13:10:00.003+03:00

Before starting this post, I'd like to thank everybody for the awesome and supporting comments, and welcome the new followers, I wish everybody could be as supportive and caring as all of you ! Love you all x x !

You could say, Nayla was living a fairytale. She couldn't have been any happier. Day after day , She and J would get every chance they'd get to see each other. Their countless romantic get aways always left both of them smiling for days. Their hearts were full of love and passion for each other so deep, you'd want to dive in and never come back.With Nayla's birthday coming up and the school's annual music concert, alot was going on for Mr. J . He was planning something big for Nayla, on both her birthday and concert.

J: You Know what I heard ?

Nayla : What ?

J : Some body's turning 18 soon ;) !

Nayla : Ayaa 3alaaik, you remembered !

J : Of course i would remember, how could i forget my angel's birthday ?

Nayla blushed. She loved it when he called her "His Angel" . It was something he'd never said to anybody except his mother, who passed away when he was 15. She was diagnosed with late-stage breast cancer when he was 12 and tried fighting it for 3 years before giving up to god's grace. He always called her his angel, and to think that he named Nayla that, always brought tears to her eyes.

Nayla: There's something i got to tell you..

J : What ?

Nayla : I love you x x.

J : Fdaitach galbi, I love you too.

He knew deep inside that she deserved the world and so much more. He had something huge and mind-blowing planned for her birthday. The concert was the same day as her birthday. It was perfect. They'd both finish up from the concert and head out to celebrate her birthday. You could say he was going to give her what a girl wants ....

Part 6 : The Stars Were Shining Just For Us...(2)

2009-03-23T16:17:00.004+03:00

This is the 2nd part of Nayla's amazing date with Mr. J , and it's all hopefully what you wanted to indulge in ;) ! Enjoy !

They finally reached their final destination, after making a few pit stops here and there. They gathered up all there stuff and started searching for a perfect spot to set up and begin their romantic journey. They saw an old couple holding hands and walking along the beach. Instantly, they looked at each other and smiled. They both secretly hoped that it would be them walking along the beach that way many years from now. they finally found a perfect spot that had a soft, salty breeze, and a perfect view of the whole beach and the ocean. They both were deeply in love with the sea, and both hoped to cruise around in it's aquamarine waters and escape into their own little worlds , where nothing mattered. They both decided to pack a mini lunch and by mini lunch they meant McDonald's . He teased her about the way she ate . He would call her a rabbit for taking tiny bits and looking so cute. She called him a panda for devouring everything so quick. His defense was that he didn't want to waste any time and spend every minute just looking deep into her beautiful eyes. She blushed and ate silently, saying a few words here and there. She was especially shy this time because this was their first date and the first time they were seeing each other outside of school. She gradually let loose and started enjoying every minute. He fed he a couple of fries her and there, and she squirted some ketchup onto his nose just to tease him..

Nayla: Hahahahah, See ! I told you the color red suits you well !

J: If it suits me well, let's see if the color white matches your cheeks !

She got up as fast as she could and tried running away from her laughing her head off at the situation , but he was alot fitter and quicker and grabbed her from her waist , while mounting her onto his shoulder like a caveman would do to a cave woman ... She begged and laughed for him to let her down, but he said not until we get back to our spot.When they got back he set her down, but their bodies were closer then ever. They looked deep into each other's eyes, while he ran his hand through her hair, and she cupped his face between her fragile hands.

Nayla: I couldn't picture a moment better then this...

J: I say take a mental picture, cause god knows this is one that's ganna be on by mind every second of everyday..

He then tipped her face , and gave her a gentle kiss on her neck that sent tingles up and down her spine. She melted between his arms. She savored every touch, every word, and every look. Behind them you could see that the sun was setting and they both turned to face to. He was behind her and held her from her waist , while kissing the crown of her head every once in a while and her hands. He knew his limits , and knew how fragile Nayla was. He never would want her to do something she wasn't comfortable with .

Nayla: Woah... Now this is the most amazing view I've ever seen..

J: I've got a much better view..

Nayla: And which view I pray tell might that be?...

J: You..

Nayla: You always know when to say the right thing at the right time, don't you romeo?..

J: I guess I do ..

She let out a small laugh, but it was a different laugh as apposed to her usual adorable giggle. This was a calm and sensual one. One that gave J goosebumps. He hoped that he'd hear that laugh more often. They both looked at the time and noticed that it was getting late. They walked around for a while, hand in hand, and counting the stars that were in the sky. He amazed her with how much he knew about them and the constellations. The sky was especially bright that night. She sensed that it was a sign, that what was going on was something sacred and special. It was definitely a good sign. They started packing up and headed back to his car. They spent the whole drive back to her house talking about the future and what might happen. She then brought up a subject that kind of turned awkward but eventually calmed down..

Nayla: What do you feel about marriage? Do yourself with a wife and kids ?

Things went silent for a bit, and she felt guilty for turning everything awkward...

J: Yes i do, but no at the moment, I especially got a great idea of how I want my family life to be..

She smiled and then changed the subject and just as before, he held her hand while they drove back to her house. They finally reached her house after a long drive home , and she actually had fallen asleep , resting her head on his shoulder. He hated the fact that he had to wake her. He just wanted her to sleep peacefully and watch her like that for the rest of his life. He knew that he had fallen in love and though he was a teacher and her a student, she would be 18 in a month, and after that he know exactly what would happen. He had everything planned out in his head.

J: Nayla, ya gomar intay, wa9lana ...

Nayla: 9idg? kilish ma 7asait bil wagt..

J: You looked so cute asleep, i wouldn't dare wake you up..

Nayla, blushing, due tot he fact that she was afraid that he she snored or said something stupid, came up with a joke just to make sure..

Nayla: Did i snore or say something hilarious like " I feel like a ballerina?"

He burst out laughing, and kept on laughing to the point where tears started to stream down his face.

J: Naahh, You were as peaceful as a baby...

She then was satisfied. She then gathered up her stuff , and turned to him...

Nayla: I can't wait for next time...

J: Neither can I.. call me before you go to sleep, so i know your tucked in and are on your way to your la la land ..

Nayla, letting out that sensual laugh : Don't worry , I already do that anyways.

J: Take care 7ayati, and one more thing... I love you.

Nayla: You too Hun, and I love you too

It was the first time that had said it to each other face to face and it was amazing. She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, while he kissed he hand, before she got out of the car. She closed the door and started walking towards her front door. She turned back to see him watching her and making sure she got in safely. She gave him a fly kiss before stepping in and he returned the favor. She got in and sealed the door. She leaned against it thinking " He's so good to me and I know I'm safe with him... He has my heart and I have his, he definitely is the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with.." She smiled to herself and headed up the stairs. A whole new day was to come , with many more surprises....

Part 6 : The Stars Were Shining Just For Us...(1)

2009-03-22T18:38:00.004+03:00

Hey everybody, Nayla's date is going to divided into 2 parts, and trust me , .. It's going to be juicy ;) ! Enjoy !

Finally the big day arrived, after tossing and turning, she couldn't wait to get up . As soon as her alarm set off at 9 AM, She practically jumped out of bed ! She put on her favorite bunny slippers she's had for ages and never bothers to change and headed to her porcelain bathroom . She spent most of the night creating this mini schedule in her head about everything she was going to do, from point A to Z... She then headed down to the kitchen to grab something to eat , She decided on one of her mom's famous double chocolate muffins and cup of her equally famous chai haleeb . she indulged while she savored each bite of it's chocolaty goodness. After she was done with her morning ritual, she headed back up to her room to start getting ready.
She got her ipod and plugged in into her sound system, and started playing her favorite song of the moment " Shake It - Metro Station" , maxed up the volume , and sang along with a huge smile on her face..

I'll take you home if you don't leave me at

the front door (leave me at the front door)

Your body's cold, but girl we're getting so warm

And I was thinking of ways that I could

get inside (get inside)

Tonight you're falling in love (let me go now)

This feeling's tearing me up (here we go now)

She then headed to her closet , and kept rummaging through her clothes.. " no this makes me look fat, no this is too sexy, this is too childish, this is too preppy" it went on and on for two hours until she settled for A white Cami , with a light olive green sweater , light green skinny jeans, with a pear of her favorite black pumas. For accessories, she settled with a bunch of Red-Indian style bead bracelets on her left , a pair of small simple clear crystal stud earrings , and as always, her treasured white gold necklace with a black pearl. It was already 1:30 when she set everything on her bead. She grabbed her fluffy black bath robe, and hoped into the shower. She had her loofah in one hand and her favorite vanilla body wash. She scrubbed and washed every area she could reach, over and over, till she was satisfied that she was clean enough, she hoped out and start drying herself. You see Nayla was naturally blessed with an amazing body. She was naturally tanned , had curves in all the right places, and could it what ever she wanted without worrying about gaining weight. She then sprayed some of her vanilla body mist on , while she took out her make up. She added a bit of her Mac foundation on, added some shimmer on, then started applying her very rich and dark gosh black eyeliner, that really really shaped her almond shaped eyes and brought out her grey eyes more... then added some mascara on, and finally finished off the whole look with a clear coat of colorless lip gloss. She didn't want to go over the top for a day at the beach. Then she got down to business, on her thick black curls. This was another blessing she had. Her mid-back long jet black hair was naturally curly, and not the messy kind, but the kind that people spent hours on trying to achieve. She air dried it then tied it up so it wouldn't puff up alot. She got dressed, slowly and carefully, before she knew it , J had called

J: "I'm outside, You ready to go ?"

Nayla: " Yup, I'll be down in a minute"

J : " I can't wait to see you"

Nayla, blushing a deep red " I can't wait either "

She let down her hair, and put her hands through it it a couple of times, sprayed some of her Bali Dream perfume on, and she was good to go. She grabbed her phone , house keys, aviator shades, her Sony camera, make up kit, and dumped it all except her phone and sunglasses into her signature big black bag and was off. She headed down the stairs , while texting her mom telling her that she was heading out. She took a deep breath , put her shades on, and opened the front door. There, was a breath-taking scene. J was standing there , with his everyday look, leather jacket, and black shades. She wanted to jump him at that very moment, but held herself.

J : " You look......"

Nayla: " I look ... what?" . She started to freak out? was there something wrong with the way i looked?...

J: "Amazing, breath-taking, what ever word is there possible to describe you ! Intay ima3thibani !!!! "

Nayla, giggling: "Hahah Thanks, you don't look so bad yourself..."

J : " I don't look soo bad ha ? Just wait and see..."

Nayla, in a flirty way " I meant it in a good way.."

J: "let's get going .."

Nayla and him got into his black range rover ... and before he started the engine, he grabbed Nayla , and embraced her into an un-expected hug. She was surprised but at the same time felt like she was on cloud 9 , and hugged him back. They stayed like that for a while before she blurted out " you know the car isn't ganna drive itself you know?" He let out a huge laugh " Yea I know.." He then started the engine and headed off on to the main road. He held Nayla's Hand the whole ride to the beach . She couldn't have been happier...

Sorry everybody...

2009-03-19T20:05:00.003+03:00

I'm sorry everybody for delaying the 5 thpart , but I really need to vent out some negative feelings I've been bottling up !!! Thank you for understanding = )!

There comes a time at any stage of every body's life when things don't go the way they want it to, they make mistakes the regret later, and never really pay attention till the consequences come right back at you ! Damn !
How life UN-expected life can be ! It can be the time of your life one day and then the next, you regret taking that last breath of fresh air...
Yet , somehow there are those who you think you can trust, but it turns out, there is no such thing as trust.
You think that family is going to back you up at the hardest of times, when they seem to be the center of all problems
Blame is taken for granted and used easily, when it has been the reason for wars and blood-sheds all over the world, Sorry for being melodramatic , but it's true.
So please go to those dear to you, and really understand what happens, happens for a reason...
You never know when that might be the last time you see that person...

Part 5 : It All Starts With One Touch

2009-03-08T18:46:00.005+03:00

For the next few weeks, only one thing stuck to Nayla's head like paper stuck to the wall.. Mr. J . When ever she had music, she'd be the first in class and the last to leave. He always had the same aftershave on, the same stylish messed up hair, and smile on his face whenever he saw Nayla. Even though some of the other girls with in her class had a "school-girl" crush on him, he'd always have his eyes on Nayla.They'd always talk about what music she was into, what his thoughts were, and their everyday lives. She was finally letting some in, and actually..start to smile. She had somebody she could open up to no matter what , and would be considered as an equal. She hadn't opened like this ever since Mariam's passing...

She even made her personal project about composing her own music album. She took every chance she could , just to be near him, and feel his presence . They'd talk for hours and hours on the phone, until they both fell asleep, or at least one of them did, it'd always be Nayla first, and all J would do is listen to her soft deep breaths as she slept peacefully, the first time she had in months . Even her own mother begin to see a change in her. No matter what it was, she was happy to see her daughter gradually become herself again and thanking god for it every single day . She was starting eating well, spending more time with her mother , and getting better grades. Life couldn't have been any better..

During one of those late night phone calls, something surfaced up..

Mr. J: Nayla 7abooba

Nayla: Na3am ya 3yoon Nayla

Mr. J : Fdait hal 3yoon ana, bas I need to ask you something, it's been on my mind for a while..

Nayla: Sure, what's up ?

Mr. J : Are we ever ganna go out on a real date ?...

At that moment, She felt he heart stop. She was speechless, she didn't know what to say, even though it's something she's been wanting for a while, she never expected him to be the person to make the first move..

Nayla: I'am glad you brought it up.. I've been wanting to ask you the same thing for a while...

Mr.J: Phewwww ! that's a relief, I was scared of things going awkward !

Nayla "with her signature giggle that made Mr. J melt at heart" : Hahahah, Chillax babe, it'll happen soon enough..

Mr. J : What are you doing tomorrow ?...

Nayla: I'm spending it with you !

Mr. J : Your unpredictable, you know that ?

Nayla: What else is new !?

They went on talking about it for a while and deciding that they'd spend the afternoon to evening having a romantic walk with dinner later at the beach. She'd tell her mom she was working on her personal project, and she'd phone her at least once every hour just so she'd stop worrying as all moms do. They finally finished up one of their many romantic calls, with their sweet kisses over the phone and their " I love you's " and closed the phone. Nayla was so excited that she could barely sleep , a million thoughts ran through her head " what am I ganna wear ?, What should I talk about? Should I get him something ? etc...etc...etc" The questions and thoughts kept rushing and rushing, but one thing was for sure... She couldn't wait for tomorrow to come.

Part 4 : A Revelation

2009-03-03T22:22:00.002+03:00

Sorry Everybody , But I noticed that part 4 was missing , So I published it again for all those who had the same WTF look on their faces when reading it . Thank god for Microsoft Word x x.

The knock on the door startled them both.. It turned out to be the janitor asking him if he could come in and start clearing up. He told him that it was fine and that he could start later. They read each other's minds and knew, if anybody had seen them in a situation like that, there would be hell to pay. "That was close ha?" Nayla finally blurted out. "Yeah, it was ...". She gathered up her stuff and before she left, he grabbed her by her arm " This is my card with my mobile number on it , need anything at all, just call , OK?" She nodded and walked towards the door. She took one glance back, and then their eyes met for what felt like eternity. She finally broke their gaze and started heading down the flight of stairs to get to her locker as soon as possible. With each step she took, She had a million thoughts running through her head." What just happened? What is going on? Is there something between us? Is something going to happen? Could I Be....? NO ! ... I mean come on, .. I'M NOT FALLING FOR MY MUSIC TEACHER !!!!!!!!"

"SHIT ! how could i be falling for him ?! " she told herself. It was obvious that something else was starting, but thinking of his touch made her blush, the way his jade blue eyes set of the contrast of his jet black hair, and the way his after-shave smelled so good...For the first time in what felt like forever, ...she started feeling something foreign , she was feeling.. happy .

Back in class. Mr. J was feeling a little weird about what happened between him and Nayla.." Did i do something wrong ? what if somebody had walked in on us? I wouldn't mind anything happening to me, but Nayla doesn't need anymore problems in her life.." . A million thoughts raced through his head, but one kept picking at him like a pitch fork , " There is something definitely between us .. "

You see, Mr . J isn't some old washed up has been, but a young 22 year old struggling musician, who took this job to make a living, and Nayla was a month away from turning 18. Can you see the dilemma ?

As he tried blowing off those thoughts, he grabbed his guitar and started preparing for his next gig...

They both didn't expect what was going to happen next ...

Part 3 : A Miracle

2009-02-03T20:21:00.000+03:00

Sorry everybody that i haven't been around to update the blog, i know it's been a while, but I've been really busy , enjoy ! I'd also like to state that this is fictional and based on ideas and thoughts.. Thank you = )

Nayla had just come back from a typical day at school. English, french,math,and music. She always loved Mondays, her last 2 lessons would be music. She had a certain passion for music she had developed over time. She always had dreams of being this famous rock star but they were popped like bubbles by 2 main things, Culture and Family. She knew in the society she lived in, it wouldn't be accepted for a girl to be a singer and that would be against religions. With her family, her father would have blew his cap off if he knew that his daughter wanted to be what he called "stage trash". But her mother secretly encouraged her to pursue her dreams, since her parents were divorced, her mom was always her right wing.

Today's music lesson was about music and lyrics. The retired singer/teacher explained that most song lyrics are written based on experience and emotions. For a song to really touch people, the writer's feelings and all had to really be put into the song. Her songs would always reflect some of her depression . " Life's all about them black eyes and cut lips" and " Save yourself from flying away on angel wings". He had noticed it especially when she strummed on her guitar strings, She would excuse herself from class after finishing a piece and come back from the bathroom with red eyes and runny nose. It was obvious to him that she'd been crying. He decided to confront her about her problem today after class. " Nayla, please stay after class i need to discuss something with you.. " , She reluctantly agreed and waited till the end of the class in silence. " He points at the chairs that were at the back of the class and grabbed a box of tissues. he knew he was in for the water works. " I've noticed something about all your song Nayla, they have a lot of depth and meaning , I'll give you credit for that, but there's also some sadness and sorrow in them..." Nayla could feel the tears starting to build up in her eyes. " Do you want to tell me why? I'm not forcing you or anything, I'm just concerned..." Nayla felt the first tear trickle down her face. With all the bravery she could summon up, she began to tell him about Mariam's death and how it forever changed her. She paused from time to time letting out a few tears here and there... but she never really got out of that state of mind.

He placed his hand on hers , and she was surprised yet found it comforting. She hadn't really talked about Mariam's passing to anybody. She felt like a weight had slightly been lifted off her shoulders. She unknowingly rested her head on his shoulder, after all that crying , she was pretty tired. " Whenever Your feeling down or need some one to talk to , just come to me OK ?" He said with his hands gently cupping her chin. She suddenly felt a chill run down her back...All of sudden they both heard a knock on the door.. Who could still be here...?

To Be Continued...

Part 2

2008-12-28T12:54:00.000+03:00

The screeching screams as she started running, Cold-skinned hands grabbing her from her feet trying to pull her down, she crys out for the light, she eventually gets out , kept running down the long dark hall, faster and faster , her sweat and tears trickle down to the darkness below her, until a big blow opened her eyes.

Nayla was having that nightmare again, the same one she'd been having for months , ever since Mariam's death, and as usual, she'd wake up covered in sweat and tears, just as she did in her dreams. She slowly got up from under her black silk covers and put on her favorite furry bunny slippers, the same ones Mariam gave to her on the last birthday she was alive. She headed for her chocolate brown bathroom , and splashed some cold water on her face.The time was 3:47 a.m., the same time Mariam had died, the same time she woke up to every night.

She then took out her pack of Red Marlboro cigarettes and headed for her balcony. She was never scared of getting caught cause her room was not attached to the main part of the house. She had started this habit a month ago while hanging out with a different group of friends. One of them offered, and without hesitating, she took it. Since then it's been something she thought would help fill the void Mariam left in her.

After she finished her normal round of 5 or 6 cigarettes, she grabbed her guitar and started playing " There for You" by Flyleaf. It sorted reminded her of what she could've done to stop Mariam's death. She felt that she was to blame cause she couldn't read the signs of what was happening . She kept thinking" damn it ! why couldn't;t i have helped her? why couldn't have i saved her ?! she's gone now because of me !" she put her guitar down, and brought her face to her knees , where she felt her bittersweet tears fall down. She had never felt so alone...

The Beginning

2008-12-26T17:43:00.000+03:00

It was a normal sunny day in bahrain, and everybody else was already awake. Nayla already was well on her way to the one person she could always count on . Her best friend Mariam. Their moms would some times look at them and say " each one of those girls have half a heart when away from each other, but when together, they are one." They were a living testimony of soul sisters. When ever Nayla felt an unbearable pain in her heart, she knew something was wrong with Mariam. Sometimes Nayla's older sister would say" Widi achoofkoum youm matkalmoon ba3a'6, just to see what would happen to you two" .The mere that of that happening saddened them both. They never imagined life without each other.

Those thoughts were going through her head when she felt something was wrong. She called mariam right away .When Mariam picked up, Nayla knew she'd been crying."Maryoom, 7abooba shfeech?". Mariam said " Salmano hadeni la2na he thinks i cheated on him with his best friend oo ye3arf ina his best friend is a player".When Nayla heard that , she told her driver to speed up, she sensed something terrible was about to happen. "Nayool bakalmich 3ougoub ok? bas gabel ma tiskeena bagoolech shay...". Nayla didn't like the sound of her voice."a7bich , oo intay il wa7eeda ili weyay , oo u've been and always be my other half.." Nayla felt tears coming down her cheek out of nowhere."Mimo , shla itgooleen chethi, let3awreen galbi ! sheno nawya itsaween?". "Walla shay Nayool, bas kan fi 5a6ri agoolech chethi". Nayla knew she was lieing and that she was up to something."Inzain , dgeegtain oo ana 3indach". Nayla hung up fearing the worst.

When she got to Mariam's house she literally jumped out of the car and walked through Mariam's garden. There was always something about her garden that was peaceful. Maybe it was the Jasmine Viens that hung from the wall , that always seemed remind her of Victoria Falls, or maybe it was the beautiful yet fragile pink roses, that seem to grow at the weirdest time of year. Nayla picked one and held it to her nose.She took a deep breath in and felt it's scent calm her down. Suddenly she felt it's thorns prick her deeply, which it never did . She knew something was definitly wrong.

She quickened her paces and opened the front door. She went and said hello to Mariam's mom. She kissed her hand and the crown of her head as if she were her own mother . She rushed to up the flight of stairs to Mariam's room . When she opened the door , she found all the pictures that Mariam and Salman had taken together. Along with their love notes and gifts they gave each other. Nayla looked at them and that "why the hell would he do something this huge to hurt Mariam?". She always knew Jaber was no good. Ever since he tried to forcefully kiss Mariam once at a party, but she never told Salman, even though Nayla told her to, she never did. While walking through Mariam's light honey coloured room with wooden flooring room, she noticed a letter with her name on it. Something was up. She opened the letter and started reading it .

" To My honeybee, you always knew that right thing to say when everything was wrong. You've always been idol, strong,tall,and kind. Not a day goes by when your not on my mind, just as you feel my pain, I feel yours. When your over-the-moon happy, i suddenly find myself jumping for no reason what so ever" Nayla laughed at that part, and contuined on" you've always been my guardian angel, even when your not around you always seemed to protect me even when your not around, your pure and sweet soul always kept me going and surronded me wherever i went. But I can't let you continue doing that.Salman broke my heart, and without a heart i can't live. When you read this letter, it'll be too late to do anything. Salman kan 7ayati oo rou7i, magdar a3eesh bdoona. I'am sorry honeybee, but you got live this life, without me, I love you, and i'll live within your heart as you have in mine, yours truley and blessingly, Mimo...."

Nayla Jumped off the bed and run towards the bathroom. There , was the turning point of her life , Mariam was lying lifeless on the bathroom floor with empty pill bottles around her. Nayla grabbed her, while crying uncontrollebly " Mimo, please don't leave me alone, i can't go on without you." She started preforming CPR while calling Mariam's mom. Mariam's mom screamed at the top of her lungs asking what's wrong with her ." She's not breathing, i can't feel her pulse!!!!". She rushed and called 999 while Nayla continued to preform CPR. Then Mariam opened her eyes and said " Tell him, He's always been the light of my life" ."Mariam stay with me please".... but it was no use, she was gone. Nayla held Mariam's cold face to her head and started moving back and forth while reciting سورة ياسين over her lifeless corpse....

As you see, this is where all her troubles began and her demons came alive. When Mariam died, Nayle died along with her. These are the "memoirs of a troubled teen".