A Poem : It Is Her

I'd like to dedicate this post with a poem I wrote for my grandmother , who passed away on the 28th of January 2008 . I miss you both . Allah yer7mich oo Ya'3mid rou7ich il janna ya yuma ...I love you.





Time flies by in the blink of an eye
Words go un-said and sounds go un-heard
As autumn leafs gently flutter to the ground
The winter silence screams the truth
The old widower visits his beloved's grave
With regret and sorrow across his withered face
He lay apple blossoms on the engraved tombstone
Engraved it said " Here lay the savior of all, her presence is sensed within the hearts of all .."
She finally lay to rest, after her on-going battle with life
He walks away, the bitter-sweet tears trickle down his cheeks
The thud of his footsteps fill the silence...

Part 7 : What A Girl Wants.....

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You could say, Nayla was living a fairytale. She couldn't have been any happier. Day after day , She and J would get every chance they'd get to see each other. Their countless romantic get aways always left both of them smiling for days. Their hearts were full of love and passion for each other so deep, you'd want to dive in and never come back.With Nayla's birthday coming up and the school's annual music concert, alot was going on for Mr. J . He was planning something big for Nayla, on both her birthday and concert.


J: You Know what I heard ?


Nayla : What ?


J : Some body's turning 18 soon ;) !


Nayla : Aww babe, you remembered !

J : Of course i would remember, how could I forget my angel's birthday ?


Nayla blushed. She loved it when he called her "His Angel" . It was something he'd never said to anybody except his mother, who passed away when he was 15. She was diagnosed with late-stage breast cancer when he was 12 and tried fighting it for 3 years before giving up to god's grace. He always called her his angel, and to think that he named Nayla that, always brought tears to her eyes.


Nayla: There's something i got to tell you..


J : What ?


Nayla : I love you x x.


J : I love you too.


He knew deep inside that she deserved the world and so much more. He had something huge and mind-blowing planned for her birthday. The concert was the same day as her birthday. It was perfect. They'd both finish up from the concert and head out to celebrate her birthday. You could say he was going to give her what a girl wants ....

Part 6 : The Stars Were Shining Just For Us...(2)

This is the 2nd part of Nayla's amazing date with Mr. J , and it's all hopefully what you wanted to indulge in ;) ! Enjoy !


They finally reached their final destination, after making a few pit stops here and there. They gathered up all there stuff and started searching for a perfect spot to set up and begin their romantic journey. They saw an old couple holding hands and walking along the beach. Instantly, they looked at each other and smiled. They both secretly hoped that it would be them walking along the beach that way many years from now.

They finally found a perfect spot that had a soft, salty breeze, and a perfect view of the whole beach and the ocean. They both were deeply in love with the sea, and both hoped to cruise around in it's aquamarine waters and escape into their own little worlds , where nothing mattered. They both decided to pack a mini lunch and by mini lunch they meant McDonald's . He teased her about the way she ate . He would call her a rabbit for taking tiny bits and looking so cute. She called him a panda for devouring everything so quick.

His defense was that he didn't want to waste any time and spend every minute just looking deep into her beautiful eyes. She blushed and ate silently, saying a few words here and there. She was especially shy this time because this was their first date and the first time they were seeing each other outside of school. She gradually let loose and started enjoying every minute. He fed he a couple of fries her and there, and she squirted some ketchup onto his nose just to tease him..

Nayla: Hahahahah, See ! I told you the color red suits you well !

J: If it suits me well, let's see if the color white matches your cheeks !

She got up as fast as she could and tried running away from her laughing her head off at the situation , but he was alot fitter and quicker and grabbed her from her waist , while mounting her onto his shoulder like a caveman would do to a cave woman ... She begged and laughed for him to let her down, but he said not until we get back to our spot.When they got back he set her down, but their bodies were closer then ever. They looked deep into each other's eyes, while he ran his hand through her hair, and she cupped his face between her fragile hands.

Nayla: I couldn't picture a moment better then this...

J: I say take a mental picture, cause god knows this is one that's ganna be on by mind every second of everyday..

He then tipped her face , and gave her a gentle kiss on her neck that sent tingles up and down her spine. She melted between his arms. She savored every touch, every word, and every look. Behind them you could see that the sun was setting and they both turned to face to. He was behind her and held her from her waist , while kissing the crown of her head every once in a while and her hands. He knew his limits , and knew how fragile Nayla was. He never would want her to do something she wasn't comfortable with.
 
Nayla: Woah... Now this is the most amazing view I've ever seen..

J: I've got a much better view..

Nayla: And which view I pray tell might that be?...

J: You..

Nayla: You always know when to say the right thing at the right time, don't you romeo?..

J: I guess I do ..

She let out a small laugh, but it was a different laugh as apposed to her usual adorable giggle. This was a calm and sensual one. One that gave J goosebumps. He hoped that he'd hear that laugh more often. They both looked at the time and noticed that it was getting late. They walked around for a while, hand in hand, and counting the stars that were in the sky. He amazed her with how much he knew about them and the constellations. The sky was especially bright that night. She sensed that it was a sign, that what was going on was something sacred and special. It was definitely a good sign. They started packing up and headed back to his car.

They spent the whole drive back to her house talking about the future and what might happen. She then brought up a subject that kind of turned awkward but eventually calmed down..

Nayla: What do you feel about marriage? Do yourself with a wife and kids ?

Things went silent for a bit, and she felt guilty for turning everything awkward...

J: Yes i do, but no at the moment, I especially got a great idea of how I want my family life to be..

She smiled and then changed the subject and just as before, he held her hand while they drove back to her house. They finally reached her house after a long drive home , and she actually had fallen asleep , resting her head on his shoulder. He hated the fact that he had to wake her. He just wanted her to sleep peacefully and watch her like that for the rest of his life. He knew that he had fallen in love and though he was a teacher and she being his student, she would be 18 in a month, and after that he know exactly what would happen. He had everything planned out in his head.

J: Nayla, Sweety , were home.

Nayla: Really ? Damn , time really does fly by..

J: You looked so cute asleep, I wouldn't dare wake you up..

Nayla, blushing, due to the fact that she was afraid that she might've snored or said something stupid, came up with a joke just to make sure..

Nayla: Did i snore or say something hilarious like " I feel like a ballerina?"

He burst out laughing, and kept on laughing to the point where tears started to stream down his face.

J: Naahh, You were as peaceful as a baby...

She then was satisfied. She then gathered up her stuff , and turned to him...

Nayla: I can't wait for next time...

J: Neither can I.. call me before you go to sleep, so i know your tucked in and are on your way to your la la land ..

Nayla, letting out that sensual laugh : Don't worry , I already do that anyways.

J: Take care Darling, and one more thing... I love you.

Nayla: You too Hun, and I love you too

It was the first time that had said it to each other face to face and it was amazing. She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, while he kissed he hand, before she got out of the car. She closed the door and started walking towards her front door. She turned back to see him watching her and making sure she got in safely. She gave him a fly kiss before stepping in and he returned the favor. She got in and sealed the door. She leaned against it thinking " He's so good to me and I know I'm safe with him... He has my heart and I have his, he definitely is the guy I want to spend the rest of my life with.." She smiled to herself and headed up the stairs.

A whole new day was to come , with many more surprises....

Part 6 : The Stars Were Shining Just For Us...(1)

Hey everybody, Nayla's date is going to divided into 2 parts, and trust me , .. It's going to be juicy ;) ! 


Enjoy !



Finally the big day arrived, after tossing and turning, she couldn't wait to get up . As soon as her alarm set off at 9 AM, She practically jumped out of bed ! She put on her favorite bunny slippers she's had for ages and never bothers to change and headed to her porcelain bathroom . She spent most of the night creating this mini schedule in her head about everything she was going to do, from point A to Z... She then headed down to the kitchen to grab something to eat , She decided on one of her mom's famous double chocolate muffins and cup of her equally famous chai haleeb . she indulged while she savored each bite of it's chocolaty goodness. After she was done with her morning ritual, she headed back up to her room to start getting ready.

She got her ipod and plugged in into her sound system, and started playing her favorite song of the moment " Shake It - Metro Station" , maxed up the volume , and sang along with a huge smile on her face..

I'll take you home if you don't leave me at

the front door (leave me at the front door)

Your body's cold, but girl we're getting so warm

And I was thinking of ways that I could

get inside (get inside)

Tonight you're falling in love (let me go now)

This feeling's tearing me up (here we go now)

She then headed to her closet , and kept rummaging through her clothes..

" no this makes me look fat, no this is too sexy, this is too childish, this is too preppy"

It went on and on for two hours until she settled for A white Cami , with a light olive green sweater , light grey skinny jeans, with a pear of her favorite black pumas. For accessories, she settled with a bunch of Red-Indian style bead bracelets on her left , a pair of small simple clear crystal stud earrings , and as always, her treasured white gold necklace with a single black pearl.

It was already 1:30 when she set everything on her bead. She grabbed her fluffy black bath robe, and hoped into the shower. She had her loofah in one hand and her favorite vanilla body wash in the other. She scrubbed and washed every area she could reach, over and over, till she was satisfied that she was clean enough . She hopped out of the shower and start drying herself.

You see Nayla was naturally blessed with an amazing body. She was naturally tanned , had curves in all the right places, and could it what ever she wanted without worrying about gaining weight.

She then sprayed some of her vanilla body mist on , while she took out her make up. She added a bit of her Mac foundation on, added some shimmer on, then started applying her very rich and dark gosh black eyeliner, that really really shaped her almond shaped eyes and brought out her grey eyes more... then added some mascara on, and finally finished off the whole look with a clear coat of colorless lip gloss. She didn't want to go over the top for a day at the beach.

Then she got down to business, on her thick black curls. This was another blessing she had. Her mid-back long jet black hair was naturally curly, and not the messy kind, but the kind that people spent hours on trying to achieve. 

She air dried it then tied it up so it wouldn't puff up alot. She got dressed, slowly and carefully, before she knew it , J had called

J: "I'm outside, You ready to go ?"

Nayla: " Yup, I'll be down in a minute"

J : " I can't wait to see you"

Nayla, who's face blushed into a deep red color " I can't wait either "

She let down her hair, and put her hands through it it a couple of times, sprayed some of her Bali Dream perfume on, and she was good to go. She grabbed her phone , house keys, aviator shades, her Sony camera, make up kit, and dumped it all except her phone and sunglasses into her signature big black bag and was off.

She headed down the stairs , while texting her mom telling her that she was heading out. She took a deep breath , put her shades on, and opened the front door. There, was a breath-taking scene. J was standing there , with his everyday look, leather jacket, and black shades. She wanted to jump him at that very moment, but held herself.

J : " You look......"

Nayla: " I look ... what?" . She started to freak out? was there something wrong with the way i looked?...

J: "Amazing, breath-taking, what ever word is there possible to describe you !"

Nayla, giggling: "Hahah Thanks, you don't look so bad yourself..."

J : " I don't look soo bad ha ? Just wait and see..."

Nayla, in a flirty way " I meant it in a good way.."

J: "let's get going .."

Nayla and him got into his black range rover ... and before he started the engine, he grabbed Nayla , and embraced her into an un-expected hug. She was surprised but at the same time felt like she was on cloud 9 , and hugged him back. They stayed like that for a while before she blurted out .

Nayla : " You know the car isn't ganna drive itself "

He let out a huge laugh .

J: " Yea I know.."

He then started the engine and headed off on to the main road. He held Nayla's Hand the whole ride to the beach . She couldn't have been happier...

Sorry everybody...

I'm sorry everybody for delaying the 5 thpart , but I really need to vent out some negative feelings I've been bottling up !!! Thank you for understanding = )!


There comes a time at any stage of every body's life when things don't go the way they want it to, they make mistakes the regret later, and never really pay attention till the consequences come right back at you ! Damn !
How life UN-expected life can be ! It can be the time of your life one day and then the next, you regret taking that last breath of fresh air...
Yet , somehow there are those who you think you can trust, but it turns out, there is no such thing as trust.
You think that family is going to back you up at the hardest of times, when they seem to be the center of all problems
Blame is taken for granted and used easily, when it has been the reason for wars and blood-sheds all over the world, Sorry for being melodramatic , but it's true.
So please go to those dear to you, and really understand what happens, happens for a reason...
You never know when that might be the last time you see that person...

Part 5 : It All Starts With One Touch

For the next few weeks, only one thing stuck to Nayla's head like paper stuck to the wall.. Mr. J . When ever she had music, she'd be the first in class and the last to leave. He always had the same aftershave on, the same stylish messed up hair, and smile on his face whenever he saw Nayla. Even though some of the other girls with in her class had a "school-girl" crush on him, he'd always have his eyes on Nayla.They'd always talk about what music she was into, what his thoughts were, and their everyday lives. She was finally letting some in, and actually..start to smile. She had somebody she could open up to no matter what , and would be considered as an equal. She hadn't opened like this ever since Mariam's passing...




She even made her personal project about composing her own music album. She took every chance she could , just to be near him, and feel his presence . They'd talk for hours and hours on the phone, until they both fell asleep, or at least one of them did, it'd always be Nayla first, and all J would do is listen to her soft deep breaths as she slept peacefully, the first time she had in months . Even her own mother begin to see a change in her. No matter what it was, she was happy to see her daughter gradually become herself again and thanking god for it every single day . She was starting eating well, spending more time with her mother , and getting better grades. Life couldn't have been any better..





During one of those late night phone calls, something surfaced up..





Mr. J: Nayla Babe





Nayla: Yea doll..





Mr. J : I need to ask you something, it's been on my mind for a while..





Nayla: Sure, what's up ?





Mr. J : Are we ever ganna go out on a real date ?...





At that moment, She felt he heart stop. She was speechless, she didn't know what to say, even though it's something she's been wanting for a while, she never expected him to be the person to make the first move..



Nayla: " I'am glad you brought it up.. I've been wanting to ask you the same thing for a while... "



Mr.J: " Phewwww ! that's a relief, I was scared of things going awkward ! "



Nayla "with her signature giggle that made Mr. J melt at heart" : Hahahah, Chillax babe, it'll happen soon enough.. "



Mr. J : " What are you doing tomorrow ?... "



Nayla: " I'm spending it with you ! "



Mr. J : " Your unpredictable, you know that ? "



Nayla: " What else is new !? "



They went on talking about it for a while and deciding that they'd spend the afternoon to evening having a romantic walk with dinner later at the beach. She'd tell her mom she was working on her personal project, and she'd phone her at least once every hour just so she'd stop worrying as all moms do. They finally finished up one of their many romantic calls, with their sweet kisses over the phone and closed the phone. Nayla was so excited that she could barely sleep , a million thoughts ran through her head .


" What am I ganna wear ?, What should I talk about? Should I get him something ? etc...etc...etc" 


The questions and thoughts kept rushing and rushing, but one thing was for sure... She couldn't wait for tomorrow to come.

Part 4 : A Revelation

Sorry Everybody , But I noticed that part 4 was missing , So I published it again for all those who had the same WTF look on their faces when reading it . Thank god for Microsoft Word x x.

The knock on the door startled them both.. It turned out to be the janitor asking him if he could come in and start clearing up. He told him that it was fine and that he could start later. They read each other's minds and knew, if anybody had seen them in a situation like that, there would be hell to pay. 


"That was close ha?" Nayla finally blurted out. 


J: "Yeah, it was ...". She gathered up her stuff and before she left, he grabbed her by her arm .


J: " This is my card with my mobile number on it , need anything at all, just call , OK?" 


She nodded and walked towards the door. She took one glance back, and then their eyes met for what felt like eternity. She finally broke their gaze and started heading down the flight of stairs to get to her locker as soon as possible. With each step she took, She had a million thoughts running through her head.


" What just happened? What is going on? Is there something between us? Is something going to happen? Could I Be....? NO ! ... I mean come on, .. I'M NOT FALLING FOR MY MUSIC TEACHER !!!!!!!!"


"SHIT ! how could i be falling for him ?! " she told herself. 


It was obvious that something else was starting, but thinking of his touch made her blush, the way his jade blue eyes set of the contrast of his jet black hair, and the way his after-shave smelled so good...For the first time in what felt like forever, ...she started feeling something foreign , she was feeling.. happy .

Back in class. Mr. J was feeling a little weird about what happened between him and Nayla..


J: " Did i do something wrong ? what if somebody had walked in on us? I wouldn't mind anything happening to me, but Nayla doesn't need anymore problems in her life.." . 


A million thoughts raced through his head, but one kept picking at him like a pitch fork 


J: " There is something definitely between us .. "

You see, Mr . J isn't some old washed up has been, but a young 22 year old struggling musician, who took this job to make a living, and Nayla was a month away from turning 18. Can you see the dilemma ?

As he tried blowing off those thoughts, he grabbed his guitar and started preparing for his next gig...

They both didn't expect what was going to happen next ...